Simplicity is something that folks say and sometimes a notion that you/I can move or groove to but it’s not always at an even keel with the earth’s inhabitants, time nor space.
Being a writer as I proclaimed my calling and hey it just so happens I have a knack for it comes with strategic moments of personal clarity. Not everything is ‘deep’. Not everything is oh so Soul stirring. I sit and just ‘simply’ be.
I remember the feelings that overwhelmed me that led to this fine day in MY ‘herstory’ last year when I exited stage left from the corporate wheel of mental misfortune. Oh I was a hot mess y’all. Giving a damn about work and how it should be and the ‘small’ achievements of finishing finger fucking a stack of papers only to be met with another stack to shuffle from left to right with each waking morning. I remember writing this resignation letter to a ‘job’ as I guess it was a ‘career’ of sorts for me. I respected it at one time. However, my personal calling was screaming at me every so often… so I had to stop running and running and running and answer the internal ringing.
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Sent: Wednesday, October 22, 2008 5:22 PM
Subject: Working Resolve...
Defining moments in life more times than not create/expand the life we choose to live. This would entail past tense that has just happened with every keystroke, the present tense that is the ever constant, and the future tense that has yet to be, but is shaped by the probability within the possibilities of all three.
There are two words that best describe my own personal declarative defining moment:
Resign – to submissively give up possession of: relinquish (a claim, etc); to give up (an office position, etc.)
Quit – to free (oneself) of; to discharge; to stop having, using, or doing or resign from something, to discontinue doing something. To give up one’s position of employment
Although the end result is basically the same regarding “to give up one’s position of employment”; to quit would be uncouth. The very word ‘Quit’ to me is to declare I’m a ‘quitter’ of sorts and that definition is not suitable because as it indicates in the Webster’s dictionary, it means ‘to give up without even trying hard’. But to resign is to relinquish this part and reboot/regain/reinvest myself and begin my course of living anew.
I declare my last official day in this circus Thursday, November 13th 2008 5pm. I welcome all questions and/or well wishes regarding this finality of my decision. I do thank you in advance for everything I’ve learned from you, from my fellow co-workers and of course from myself.
This stepping out on faith and running with the bulls (not bullshit, but center of creativity) is often times a tiresome affair. Sometimes I have ‘something’ to say and then there’s a considerable moment of nothing. I’m living as an Artist within a seemingly extinct art of writing. With the kindles and the short term memory due to ‘us’ seeking out sensationalism... But do I do this to be an ‘MC’ of the written word? I watched ‘The September Issue’ about Anna Wintour because I dig the Audacity and Artistry of Fashion in all it's elaborate facets. You know what I learned…. This shit ‘we’ do as Artists be it fashion or singing, or whatever it is that’s ‘your’ thing to do. We do it for the love of our inner selves and to breathe life into our beings because it screams, “SEE US, FEEL US, LOVE US!” what it is/what it means to you what does it mean to you? For You…By You… I can clearly recall sitting at my desk and wondering…
To clear my mind and be ‘open’ to the possibilities of finding the words... Sometimes they come, other times they stay hidden under the voluminous wrinkles in my head and blood pumping heart. Sometimes I can force them to spill and others… I just simply let them linger in fragments and run-ons. Life is sometimes fragmented and it runs…onward.
And so I run walk pivot twirl prance dance crawl and hold my pace onward…
March….
Viewpoint of Directed To Series
http://audacityof3.blogspot.com - Tricky Toys of The Sticky Kind
http://audacityof6.blogspot.com - Enough With The Apologies and That Damn N Word Yet Again
http://audacityof7.blogspot.com - Hooray for Greatness Now What?!
http://audacityof10.blogspot.com - Are You Ready to Be Open With Your Nakedness?
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